The Diary of a Bicep
Fan, HoTung, Sica, John, Hoax, Kelly, Yip, Ching,
SuenNam and Ian
Dear Ellen,
We the biceps of Hong Kong get very excited whenever somebody mentions muscle memory; so when we found out about your text Episodes of a Muscle Memory: Hip Hop Music Videos and 00s Adolescence in Ink Cypher we collectively contracted.
Our Hip Hop meat sacks do a lot of different things everyday, sometimes they use us wisely, sometimes they ignore us and sometimes they treat us badly, but we’re always here and ready for action.
As a bicep, we have no idea what a Beyonce, Normani or Usher is, but we wanted to create our own episode, a memory of muscles if you like and a diary entry of what we got up to on Tuesday 8th April 2025 here in Hong Kong – which is a long way from Hull. Our Hip Hop meat sacks were taking a break from participating in a Hip Hop Dance Writing Laboratory so they didn’t have that much to do.
Introducing Fan
I can't get up…I really can’t get up…I tried so hard to get Fan up, however, I still failed. This month I keep shaking and tumbling, sometimes holding poses with my frowning face. Every time I thought “Oh, is it time to rest now?” I still felt some afterglow from the laptop. I couldn’t sleep very well because Fan wouldn’t lay down in our proper sleeping posture. That’s why I kept waking up from time to time. Oh damn. Tonight I got insomnia...again…anyway, I can’t fall a sleep, so let me read a bit with Fan. When Fan was swiping Instagram on the laptop, she stopped for a while and in that moment I noticed a post with the title The Situation of Letting People’s Mind Grow Fast. The post listed 6 points:
1. When you come to terms with past regrets,
2. When your parents stop giving you money,
3. When you learn to digest negative emotions,
4. From being led to leading others,
5. When you are constantly beaten by life and
6. When you see that there is an unbridgeable gap between you and others.
I felt weird that Fan didn’t swipe down for a long while after that. Suddenly I felt a bit shaky but this time it wasn’t from movement. Weird. “Hey, all of these things I am suffering…” “Why?” Lillian replies. Then Fan covered me with a piggy blanket. It wasn’t cold but I was still feeling a bit shaky. I got that today might have been a really intense day for Fan. We didn’t go out for fresh air and greens. Okay Fan can we sleep now? Let's rest a bit first, then we hang out tomorrow! Sweet dreams…
Next is HoTung
Today is day 11,645 of living in Kiki’s arms. I feel emotional as I’m growing bigger everyday and getting stronger and I feel so energetic. I’ve been through a lot. I used to be so weak that the other limbs and organs loved to mock me and said how I was never gonna grow up. When Kiki was dancing, I felt sad because I couldn’t help give her the supporting power she needed and I felt so useless. I didn’t deserve to stay in her body and I even considered running away from home. However, she wasn’t disgusted with me, instead she kept pushing me, in a good way.
Day by day
Weight by weight
The past 4 years were tough. To keep on training no matter the weather and finally I have made her proud with a better shape and size. I just want to say how grateful I am being a part of her. She never gave up on me and now I am in charge of her arm – leading the whole arm to be the conductor of her body in her dance career. I really love to keep up with her.
I shared this story to the Red Blood Cells earlier because when I saw them today and asked them to send this message to Heart, they said they felt so tired and told me to go by myself. I said ‘What? Are you kidding me? I have no legs and I have no idea of how to swim.’ How idiot are they? How come they can’t see that I have no legs? After a few seconds...yes! Because they have no eyes and they’re not Brain. It's normal that they don't know.
Ha ha!
How come that I didn’t realise that?
How idiot am I?
Followed by Sica
8 April 2025 23:21. A long, but mundane day AGAINNNNNNNNNN.
This morning I had a moment where I couldn't feel myself. Sica was just sleeping on my side the whole night and put so much pressure on me. I just can't breathe and I'm paralysed. When she woke up and tried to turn her body to another side, the blood slowly flowed into me and I got the feeling back again. Luckily, Sica didn’t give me too many tasks as she is currently training up Lefty. She started to train Lefty with simple tasks like using the phone, brushing teeth etc. I'm happy that finally my sister can share some of our daily tasks. Hopefully, she gets more sensitive through EVERYDAY training!
Ouch! Sica’s cat bit me when we were getting ready to go out. Though he is really cute and I like him, he always surprises me with these sudden attacks. Bruh…..it’s itchy and a little of me was swollen… I hope Sica washes the wounds to cool me down. She didn’t. She needed to rush back to the office first!
Normal route, normal work, normal day…
I seldom have a chance to rest on the way to the office. Sica is always using her phone to work and scroll Instagram. My duty is to support Forearm and never drop. It’s an easy task. However, working in the office is the easiest task!! Fingers on keyboard, Forearm on table, I just hold the position as a supporting role. No extra contraction is needed. No extra effort is needed. Sometimes Shoulder will complain and show her power to Sica and let her know it’s time to massage us.
Nothing special. No extra effort. I call it a day. Will Sica schedule an intense day for me tomorrow?
I WANNA BE STRONGER!!
John's next
After the intensive journey of writing for days, there is still a lot for my brain-buddy to process. To be honest I’ve been quite bored these last few days. It’s similar to what I experienced during the mundane paper work in John’s life as an arts administrator. Tiny but repetitive moves on a keyboard and mouse are the things he does for work. Usually he lets fingers and wrists do all the work and his brain is always the one under pressure (poor brain-buddy – he always suffers the most!). I always feel left out. Holding the posture of my forearm friend is the only task I have across the whole 8 hours of work. No fun!
Maybe working straight after the three day brain-stretching workshop is a bit overwhelming for John. The unpleasant and exhausting feelings go around the body these days and energy is being drained from the outside world so easily. Tension keeps building up inside me and I feel like I’m losing the connection to my bodily neighbour which is how my partner feels too (better not to have this feeling any more).
As John is a House dancer, I am not usually involved in his dance – at least not the initial one. When he goes to Waacking lessons it makes me feel different, it’s a time which connects me with my brain buddy a lot. All those extensions and contractions are a live dialogue between us and it's a really nice exchange. I’m sore but present.
After working the whole day, John lies in bed and tries to relax and as I started to feel the softness of his bed sheets I relaxed gradually. In the stillness I can feel the warmth from the blood flowing through the vessels nearby. Good night.
It's time for Hoax
I feel burnt.
I feel active.
I feel good.
The relaxation is on the inside of my body, although I’ve much exercised, I feel more energetic.
I just did krump in the last few days.
The weather is hot (as usual).
The sun is strong.
It makes me burn.
I dance in this extreme weather to feel this extreme dance.
Philippine Krump is famous in the international Krump world.
There are so many talented Krump dancers who have good technique, style, skill and who have a historical and strong community.
I went to the Philippines for 5 days.
This 5 days included workshops, pre-selection and the main event.
Of course I have rest days.
I remember that I had fever the day before I took the flight.
When I arrived in the Philippines it was already night
I needed to rest after dinner to prepare for the workshop.
When I wake up I feel tired cuz the drugs make me tired...but I need to wake up for the workshop. I call a cab and brush my teeth.
When we arrived at the venue, we ate breakfast and got ready for the workshops.
During the workshop I learned so much.
I feel so active because I just worked so hard in the workshops.
The next day I have 2 workshops, the pre-selection and the Top16.
I feel so ready after the workshops.
Ready for the Top16.
I warm up for nothing because the pre-selection overruns and my rounds are delayed till tomorrow.
Finally.
Main event day.
It’s time to battle.
A round to show my dance.
I feel great.
An amazing adventure.
Showing my dance…
spirit…
style…
and life.
...and now Kelly
It’s the 8th of April, with sunny weather and moderate temperatures.
It’s 10am in the morning and I was lying under a pillow pressured by the weight of a heavy head. I expected it was about time to kick off the day with my first duty – arm support on the phone whilst reaching over and turning off the alarm. However, there was no such job request. It might still be rest time.
I think it wasn’t until noon that headquarters decided to start today’s work. To be honest, I wasn’t ready at that time as I was still recovering from the numbness caused by the high pressure last night. Professional as I am, I still found a way to manage my daily tasks. Toothbrush gripping support, face cleansing motion, mug lifting and not to mention the stretching into sleeve exercise.
Headquarters set off for a grocery visit. In usual practices, there would be a nutrition session on the way to the site. I think it was the procurement manager’s insistence that today we were having energy supply after the grocery. This decision was disappointing, but I didn’t complain about that to protect my professionalism.
After the long business trip where I have been lifting weights, I did think I deserved some recognition for my hard work. Nevertheless, I received a notice from headquarters that I was about to be covered by a dark-brown jacket as the skin protection measure had just been launched. I was having breathing difficulties with a lack of Vitamin D and surviving underneath a piece of dark fabric.
This is one of the worst working experiences in my career. I really hope my company can treat me better in the future for the sake of my performance.
Introducing Yip aka Yicep
Yip: Sorry for being late!But Yicep was on time, he finished it last night! I promise!
Yicep: My boss was late ya~
It’s the day of the Yicep. Today, me, Yicep, was working as an actor with my boss for a TV shooting. My bro acts as Sun WuKong, the monkey king. So I had to deal with some action movements like spinning the Monkey King Bar, pose like a real gang member – blablabla.
We earned good money in half a day, working from 0600-1430. Yicep is OK. I’m not so tired. The Monkey King Bar was finished within 10 takes.
But it was tough for Mr.Lower-Back, because we were on a mountain, with quite a steep slope. I will help him book the bone replacement treatment later. PakPakPak! The shooting location was a beautiful country park. It was the first time me and my boss were here. My boss said he wants to bring his dog SiuShin here. OMG! I will be tired.
In this beautiful scene, I suddenly think, I don’t talk to the wrong side one often.
(Actually I am the right bicep and I’m called Yicep, because I ask WHY!) Why he looks so calm? He doesn’t want to talk much. Surely he got more rest than me. I deal with the heavy stuff, while he normally does the passive stuff. At least he didn’t have to play the Monkey King Bar.
This is life bro.
Everyone’s got different potential and position.
As a bicep, a good bicep, you got to keep working on it.
Be strong, be tough, like a real man.
With great bicep comes great responsibility.
I am so proud of being right.
And sometimes, he helps without asking.
If things are heavy af, we do both hands.
And…he is willing too.
He never leaves me if I need help.
I should talk to him more.
Show my appreciation for his silent love and support.
It was a good day!
Thanks boss!
It’s time for Ching
I was never truly aware of my own 30 year existence until I wrote my first diary entry last week…it was at this moment of realisation, of becoming aware of myself, that I am also composed of relationships with others and would be unable to function without them.
I think of gratitude.
It’s another easy day for me. My life is easy because Shoulder R is always on the front line, bearing the external weight that this entity needs to carry every day...but at the same time, Forearm R and the Right Finger families need me to hold them when they’re doing their jobs – holding the phone or typing emails and stuff. I am a part of their composition, same as they are to me and, wrapped by Skin, we form this complete entity who is able to do sophisticated, and sometimes surprising work.
I think of pain.
I have been lucky. Pain only comes after exercise and training. It was never caused by injuries. Though technically pain from training is micro injuries. It means growth and not the type of injuries that leave scars or wounds that are unable to heal...which some of us in this entity have had to bear for years.
I think of distance.
It feels weird when I start to notice all that. I start to rethink what distance is. I never thought about the Metatarsal families before, but they are part of the reason why I can go to different places. Somehow, we are always connected even though it seems like we’re not.
I think of love.
Tonight I helped this entity hug another entity.
and finally SuenNam
Bicep bicep. Why is my name bicep?
I’m popping. I feel my pop inside my body. Very powerful. I trained so hard this week. Ready for the showing.
I don’t have enough time for the gym. I can be very focused in the gym...until I go home. I only want to relax in my home. The best time is alone. Oh. There is some magic in my room. That’s my work space. I can type on the keyboard. Paint on my whiteboard. No break time until I get some good ideas. But now, I’m on the bed. Ian said we have homework for the next few days. Let me finish it on my bed. Jimmy let me down on the bed. I am holding the iPhone. My friend Finger is typing so hard. I am ignoring what my girlfriend is saying. Oh yes. Jimmy is asking her how to spell ignore. Thank you for the help.
Let's end this in a more unexpected way.
Yes.
That's it.
Rest.
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Developed as part of a creative writing exercise during the Hip Hop Dance Writing Laboratory in Hong Kong in April 2025. Commissioned for Ink Cypher Round 4, November 2025.
A response to Episodes of a Muscle Memory: Hip Hop Music Videos and 00s Adolescence by Ellen O’Donohue Oddy.
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Fan, HoTung, Sica, John, Hoax, Kelly, Yip, Ching, SuenNam and Ian
April 2025 saw the first Hip Hop Dance Writing Laboratory taking place in Hong Kong in partnership with the Hong Kong Street Dance Development Association (HKSDDA). This is the first of 10 new texts written and edited over 2025 which complete Round 4 of Ink Cypher.
The Hip Hop Dance Writing Laboratory was part the programme Flo - the first Street Dance Choreographer Training and Development Programme in Hong Kong. From February 2025 Flo Participants take part in a series of skills development intensives in dramaturgy, improvisation, choreographic development and writing before they present new Hip Hop theatre work in 2026.
This text and the others created during the Hip Hop Dance Writing Laboratory will be published in English and Chinese.
中文翻譯按此 - Chinese version, click here
林奕玲譯 - Translated by Elaine Lam
